Life in Bloom
I've made a massive lifestyle change two months ago and though I've been busier than a one-armed wallpaper hanger (thanks for that one, Dad!) it's been pretty fantastic.
I left my full-time job for a part time gig at a graphic design studio and the rest of the time I spend building my freelance career. In theory, this was to have more time for making art and having no limits to where and when I can exercise my creativity, but it hasn't gone exactly as planned.
There are a few reasons for this.
- I love my new job. It's fairly intense and is constantly challenging me (in an awesome way!) I'm using my creativity much more now at work, and even though I'm only working there 20 hours a week, it's a lot more potent. During my previous 9-5 job, I had more time to daydream about what to paint next and start composing it in my head.
- I was burned out and needed a break.
- I'm still getting used to working from home with super flexible hours and I am still struggling to find a balance between work and making art. Right now, what was my peak time painting is now spent working.
- I'm slowly working on setting up an Etsy shop, which involves rescanning and retouching my art, sourcing a print shop, testing out papers and inks, trying to figure out Canada Post (THE WORST) and a million other things that cause this whole process to completely halt.
- And probably the biggest reason is PRESSURE. Now that I have more time to dedicate to my work, I should be pumping out a steady stream of fantastic shit. And I really haven't been. I think I was expecting to be completing a painting every single day and after days go by without a finished piece, I just get more and more frustrated with myself.
So I'm still alive, still dreaming, still painting (sort of...) And even though I'm really happy and I'm really enjoying my new lifestyle, I've got some stuff to work through. Talking through these feelings helps and I think I'm ready to get those brushes going again.